I hesitate. I am indecisive. I want to make the best choice, even when it is as menial as what color to choose. I have so many thoughts about what to blog, but I don’t write a single one. I don’t know how it is going to be perceived and I want it to be perceived just right. I have never been much for impressing people very much, so that is not the reason for hesitating. I do want to be able to accurately describe for a reader what I am saying. One thing that I feel that I need to improve on all the time. My words. Although I am getting pretty good at NO! Just ask my kids. I don’t want to impress but I want to make an impression if that makes sense. I want to be truthful and real but I never want to whine or rant about anything. It is really hard for me to write words. That is one reason I wanted to challenge myself with a blog. But lately, I have not been allowing myself to be challenged. I hesitate. The truth is, I have a blog that I finished over a month ago, but I still have not posted it. Because I am not sure if it envelopes the fullness of my experience, and I thought of something else that I wanted to add but still have not. So that is my challenge this week. Finish that post and send it off into blog-blog land or la-la land as I like to think of it sometimes…. anyway. And then get onto my next blog. Wish me luck.
I hesitate
Posted on August 3, 2010 by miranda
Just write what you feel, people should be able to “read” into your words and feelings through your blog. I know that I got a great appreciation for your time there, simply based on the pictures you showed us and the way you talked about the people there. The fact that you want to go back, well this speaks volumes about what it is you want to say. I will trust in your words and know there is meaning and feelings behind them. I think everyone just wants to know how your experience was there, good or bad or both! They just want to hear your voice, and read your words, and not judge them.
I agree a blog is a good way to challange you, but sometimes it can be overwhelming too! So take your time, do what you want, when you want, how you want!! It’s your blog, your words!!
We’re here to listen whenever and whatever comes our way…..
Thinking of you! Wishing you could come visit us soon! Lori