Why do I even try some days. Any day, lately, really. I am really frustrated with my motherly ability today. I should be used to it by now, or at least trying to figure out what to do to change it. Today, I brought the boys to the playplace where there was to be some friends also. Last time I went, no one was there, so I was praying that there would be someone. Much to my suprise there was not one, but four other friends there! Of course we got there late. I would like to say because of the 20 minute drive, but really because my kids don’t listen to me and take their own sweet time in hopes that I will do what I am asking them to do. I grabbed some food for the boys and into the playplace we went. I knew the boys were tired when we got there, but figured that the friends and the atmosphere would take over and we would all have a good time. Abe had a good time. Actually a GREAT time, so great in fact that he decided to have a full out tantrum as we were trying to leave. After standing him in the corner and telling him that he was not getting out until he stood like a big boy and did what I told him to do did he start to settle down enough to tell him that he is not to act like a naughty boy and that he is supposed to listen to his mommy. Sol on the other hand, was not so happy with the outing. He was one of the oldest there and no one wanted to play with him. The other older kids were mean to him and he had NO fun at all. Oh, and he didn’t get a kids meal so there was no toy. I, also, did not have much fun. I was all of the sudden not in a talking mood and sat feeling bad that my friends are trying to have conversations with me and I am having an internal pity party! What is wrong with me!!! Ugh.
This is just added to any craft project or cooking project or any other whatnot that I try and do at home with the boys. It always turns out with such a mess that I am cleaning up for most of the rest of the day! And they are never satisfied with what we do. Yes, Mom, I now know what you went through. What in the world can I do to keep myself wanting to do things with them? How do I change my attitude? How can we have fun? Ugh.
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