alot of updates and thoughts

I am still sick. I feel like it is now a full blown sinus infection. YEAH. (can’t you tell I am so excited!) The boys are still somewhat sick also. Abe is worse than Sol. I did venture out to church and our small group yesterday and that was great. I also got some ideas from friends about dealing with the sinus stuff.

I am having a really hard time with naming this baby. As much as my mom wants the name to have three of the same vowels, it most likely will not. As much as I would like it to be three sylables, it might not. I was sitting in church a few months ago and while our Pastor was talking about being a spiritual leader, I felt God was saying to me that this child will be a great spiritual leader. What name do you give to a great spiritual leader that isn’t normal or boring. That would fit with Solomon and Abraham. It can’t be Joe or Bud or Jed or Mac, or can it be? I know that will come to me in the last week or so, like it always does, and it will be something that I haven’t thought about before, just like always, and it will be all good.

I was thinking about a friend who is losing one of her life lines this weekend. Thinking about how her life is going to change and that she won’t have that help that she has come to rely on, and that she might just be lonley (like I feel some days) every once in a while. But it occured to me that she wouldn’t feel that way because she is SO selfless! She gives freely to whomever asks, she puts herself in situations to help others. I on the other hand, feel that I don’t have any more to give, mostly mentally. I don’t have any help, because I don’t look for it, or ask for it. And unfortunatly for me and our family, I kind of like it that way, at this point. I haven’t found that selfless effortless friend because I don’t put myself out there. Interesting thought….. hope you could follow it.

I think that is about all, except I have to confess that I did NOT use my mouth (with my teeth) to hold my sons arm this morning to spray saline in his nose! And yes, I left a mark, well 32 marks to be exact).