Frustrations

I am very sad today. I feel as if things are not working out. I am trying to do things myself I guess, because I don’t know exactly how to give it all over to God and have it work out. Where do I draw the line of being proactive to being controlling? I am trying to schedule with churches to talk, I am trying to send out another letter to our friends and family, I am trying to put together a missions board to set up at churches for before and after the services. I am anxiously awaiting what the realetor has to say about our house, trying to figure out where the money is going to come from to get visas and a moving van to get most of our stuff to park rapids. I am trying to give my kids a “normal” summer with all this craziness going on. I am awaiting God’s miracle to have money for our trip come in. As of right now, we have $3,166.00. We need close to $12,000 and less than two months to accomplish this. I know that God is amazing and he will not ever fail us and we will go when he has us to go. The secretary is asking now if we still plan to go in September so she can re-price airfare since the cost goes up the closer to trip time. I am so frustrated and at a loss of what to pray anymore. If you think of it, can you pray for us. That we can get money for the visas ($200), that we can get a letter out to our friends and family that has not even been written yet (and get the money for paper, envelopes and ink), that  can get the board done soon (and get the money to buy supplies for the board), that we can confirm some other churches to speak at soon. And that God will work in our hearts and minds to let us know what he wants us to do and how he wants us to pray, ask, react, and do those things. Thanks